I began to explore my subconscious mind through self hypnosis and that’s when I really began to get somewhere. All of a sudden the understanding opened up and a complete transformation began to take place within me. Hypnotherapy helped me very quickly to zoom right in to the spot where I could get the most impact and healing, yet without that feeling of poking at a sore spot with a sharp stick. Despite many years of personal and spiritual development work I had been unable to access some of the programmes and beliefs that were stored deep in my subconscious mind as energy blocks and I hadn’t realised how they were affecting me on a day to day basis.
I was shocked to discover that I had carried these energy blocks and negative limiting beliefs for a very long time, and finally I could see how they had affected everything in my life. I could see now why I lacked confidence and self-esteem, why I felt unsafe, and unworthy, why I felt ‘less than’ and put down and why I had such serious money blocks that unless I removed them, they were always going to hold me back from achieving my goals in business and in life. It was imperative that I shifted them if I was going to get anywhere near the life I really wanted, so step by step I began to set out a programme for myself that would continually uncover any limitations and fears that were still hiding within me. In fact this is the very same programme I use with my clients and students now – because I know it works.
By now I’d found a way to get deep into my own mind and it was as if someone had just flicked a switch. One-by-one those old feelings of disempowerment began to pack up and go. My health improved, my life began to change and I felt strong, confident, talented, worthy and deserving. All of the gifts I had been born with were suddenly available to me. They were always mine but now I really owned them and I was beginning to feel really amazing.
Then something happened one day that would change the course of my life. One year, I had decided to get a job in a homewares store over the Christmas period but I’d actually stayed on there for many months, firstly because I was enjoying it but also to be honest, because it was the easy option and I was burned out. On this day, I had popped out to run a work related errand and I caught sight of my reflection in another shop window – I looked so small – I was shocked and I hardly recognised myself because my Spirit felt so big now. In that moment I realised that I had finally claimed my Spirit back. I had moved from a life that had completely depleted me and I had found my Self again. I knew that I was sufficiently healed that it was time to step out into the world and to fully share my gifts and talents. I was finally ready to make a difference in the world and Be who I came here to be and to help others to do the same. I handed in my resignation and left. By staying there I was hiding away again and not being a true expression of all that I AM.
This was my absolutely transformational moment – the light bulb finally went on and I knew there was no going back.