Have you ever been at a place in your life when things felt so bad that you knew, with every fibre of your being that you could not go on living like that… that something had to change, and it had to change quickly… because you simply could see no way through and you could see no positive future?
Well I’ve felt like that. On a number of occasions actually…
I think we hear of this commonly in terms of relationships gone wrong, but mine occurred in regards to my health and my healing business and finances.
I had felt unwell for a long time — I had chronic fatigue. I’d never really known where it came from and nothing seemed to work to fix it. At the same time I was also struggling in my business and finances. It’s easy for me to look back now and see that both are connected to low energy levels and being out of alignment with my Soul, but at the time I couldn’t see that. I think it’s often like that though, when you’re right in the middle of something — it’s literally like standing in the forest and you can’t see the wood for the trees.
I understand now that my energy was low due to various unhealed emotional things from my past; my business was draining me due to the types of clients that I was working with at the time and the knock on effect on my finances was that I was not energetically in alignment with abundance because my own internal resources were so low. The Law of Attraction clearly was at play here but I couldn’t see it at the time.
I decided to be “like everyone else” and just get a normal job. I thought it would make me feel safe and secure and I’d have a regular income so as well as covering my living expenses, it would ease my worried mind. I loved that job — selling pretty items to nice happy people — and my work colleagues were lovely too, so I felt happy enough even though I had to drag myself through some days.
One day a psychic came into the store. She had a message for someone who she quickly identified as me. The message from Spirit was this:
“You’re wasted here. This is not where you’re meant to be. Please get back out there and help more people. It’s what you’re here to do, you’re meant to transform lives”.
I smiled at the psychic when she said it, because I knew that it was all true. I’d heard the message myself, but I’d been ignoring it and trying to take what I thought was the easy route — because I was tired of trying to make something work and getting nowhere — and because procrastination was one of my self sabotage behaviours, even though I didn’t know that at the time either. Wow! I had so much to learn, and that’s why we sometimes can’t do this all on our own and we need someone just to help us and give us a nudge in the right direction.
It was not long after that, one day when I popped out of the store to run an errand, I caught sight of myself in a shop window. I hardly recognised myself because I looked so small and so insignificant. It was then that I realised my time had come — I was holding myself small and actually I was suffocating myself — so much that I could hardly breathe.
In that moment I decided to be me, fully, totally and uniquely me.
It was time for my light to shine.
I completely shifted out of my limited mindset. I moved away from things that were pulling me down energetically and invested heavily in my own self development. I trained overseas and became a Clinical Hypnotherapist and coincidentally found something called Rapid Transformational Therapy in which I also trained. I got a coach to help me develop my business and I began to set myself up for success.
Needless to say, these things all cost me heavily in dollars but I was banking on myself and investing in my future and I knew that if I did that genuinely that it would all be returned to me 1000x over and that is exactly what continues to happen day by day.
I began to put myself out there, sharing my story — the truth of what I’ve seen and experienced.
I didn’t love that part at first, I felt nervous, vulnerable and raw as I had experienced a fair degree of bitching and back-stabbing from the spiritual groups I’d pulled the plug on years before, but hey-ho, life goes on… this was my time now and I was not going to let anyone stop me.
I’ve spent hours and hours on inner work, getting to know myself and I’ve come into alignment with my soul in such a way that there can be no doubt of what I came here to do, who I am and what is available to me. I am a part of all that is and that soul alignment is what creates the vibrational match to the infinite number of potentials that exist for me and for all of us actually, when we align ourselves to our Soul and the greater field.
I’ve found the genuine authentic part of me that I never knew before. It’s a depth of my soul that I didn’t know existed until I fully embraced myself, followed the inner guidance and then took the action steps that it required of me.
I have always had the ability to help people to make transformational changes in their life and I’ve been able to energetically upgrade large groups of people in the setting of the mass healings that I used to offer but its something that I had backed away from some years earlier, when I allowed somebody else’s opinion of me, to limit me.
What a waste! I could have helped so many more people if I had not listened to the neigh-sayers.
But now, I know who I am and I’ve claimed me!
No more playing small through fear of what somebody else might think of me. Proverbially, it’s none of my business what others think or say about me. Yes, that has been me in the past but not now. I know that when we do that, we are out of alignment with ourselves. It’s actually emotionally painful and it really doesn’t serve us to live like that.
I know this work from the inside out, because I’ve lived it and it’s what I’m passionate about. It’s also what I came here to do and always has been…
… to help to make transformational changes in the lives of others.
When we open up to who we truly are… when we live authentically, then we can’t help but live an abundant life because it’s our birthright and that’s alignment. My health has improved beyond anything that it ever was before, my bank balance is increasing daily and I am actually living the abundant life that I teach, speak and write about.
I can honestly say, hand on heart, that helping people to uncover their fears, remove their limitations, shift their mindset and come into alignment with the truth of their Soul, is the best and most rewarding work that I could ever ask do to. How blessed I am to be able to help people in this way.
It feels so good to be home… in the depths of my heart and in the seat of my soul.
I encourage you to find that place in yourself too.
From my heart to yours,
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